Artwork

Below is a collection of some of my system’s artwork. Feel free to look around.

Our Inner World

This is a drawing of our internal safe place in our inner world, illustrated by child alters.

Paintings

These two paintings were created by two different inner children in our system. The painting on the left shows us with an owner, and the painting on the right shows us with a kind father figure.

Inner Children’s Drawings

These are some drawings done by various inner children in our system. While we do not use our names on this platform, we want you to know that we each have different names, ages, and ways of being in the world, both in the external world, and in our internal world. Some of us feel strong, some feel confident, some feel timid, some feel confused, some feel guilty or shameful, some feel tired and sad, and some feel tormented.

We do not like being treated as though we are one individual. We appreciate it whenever anyone is present for who we are in any given moment, with no expectations of consistency, just as we do our best to remember that all beings change from moment to moment. If you were to get to know us, you would notice different facial expressions, vastly different voices, different senses of humor, different fears, and different levels of familiarity. It would feel much like getting to know different beings at different times, with many surprising moments in between.

All inner children—we hope that you find moments of free expression and free creativity as well, and that you get love-filled opportunities to share your expression with others.

Digital Artwork

This is some of our photography and digital artwork.

It took me nearly three decades to free myself from total enslavement in the international network in which I was bred and born. Since then, it has been very challenging to adjust to the markedly different customs of this society, while feeling alone, and while feeling invisible at the most fundamental levels of my being.

The first two art pieces reflect my state of profound isolation, after having left my entire life behind in order to try to become free. The life that I had to leave included family, friends, partners, children, animals, and plants. I was also forced to leave familiar homes and locations, as well as my former roles and professions. It was a challenging and complex experience to leave a life that I had been immersed in, and to leave the abusers to whom I was trauma-bonded, and toward whom I felt some some form of Stockholm-Syndrome-level responsibility and care.

The third piece links the feeling of being interpersonally impenetrable with my earliest years of organized abuse within a cold and violent institution.

The fourth piece reflects the relationships within my internal world among spirit, life and physical matter, AI, and cruelty. When i was very young, certain symbols were on the wallpaper of the room in which I slept, and this is partially depicted by this piece.

The fifth piece is a depiction of an actual location in my system’s internal world. It has taken a long time to dismantle it. If you would like to, you can try to imagine what types of staged abuse scenarios and tortures a child must undergo, in order to have a terrifying inner playground installed into an internal world. Inner children also wish to add, We did not choose the rainbow colouring of the letters—they did.

The sixth piece depicts a NO to rape, torture, enslavement, and intentionally inflicted trauma of any kind.

The seventh piece depicts healing water (or healing light) entering the roots of our entire being, and beginning to soothe and heal some of the pain and trauma that is fundamental to our programming and that keeps it in place. This trauma includes beatings, sexual abuse, torture, religious indoctrination (including Satanism), and spiritual abuse.